yeaaaaaaaaaaah buddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!

ill guess ill give this another try...

it is said in the Word that God never allows you to go through a situation u canot handle. why does it hurt sooo much when God deals with you. when we make the desicions for God to remove all that hinders us from getting to Him or to remove all that takes the place of Him in our lives he listens and removes it all. when i made the prayer i thougth it be a quick n easy process but i was wrong...its been painful. God removes what we thought was the best to put in His best. maybe its about time i let go of it all and move forward. i dont wish any of this pain and hurt on anyone, but its a process God is taking me through. what i need to realize is that it is not me alone who can do this. i do not have the strength; but through God's grace and His strength his will will be brought out. all i can do now is move forward with purpose.

for those who have read, i ask only one thing of u, prayer.

so many efing choices...a few in particular which stand out...i need to make a few decisions...but i dont kno...n i HAVE to decide or i will jus b miserable for the longest time...at the same time i do not want to make any rash decisions n regret it in the end...i jus need to knock down the remaining weeks...if i can make it to the 30th jus ridin it out without fallin n wreckin myself...i should be good...God, i could sure use some help even tho i always do things on my own knowing i shoulda consulted You first...im scared of what may b...why does life seem so hard... <---can one be confused, bummed, and feel like...wutever...all at the same time...oh well